What the hell is life anyway? You live, you die... what you do in between does it actually matter? I mean do people ever get what they work for?
You love.. But for what? You end up married, hating your spouse, you divorce, you try it all over again only to fail at it again. You have to start dating again, this one works then it doesn't. Jump on the wagon again with the next person. Oh whoops that one fucked up too! Too many people just don't know who or what they are. What they want or why. They chase the dream that sounds good for the moment only to let it die and move on to the next, leaving a path of destruction behind them. "Oh well.. It was their fault, they were too stupid" is their justification. Why do people even bother getting married? Is there such a thing as happily ever after? I am beginning to think there isn't. Just when you THINK it is all working out reality pops up, cackles once or twice, shows you how stupid you are for even thinking of what might be, then once again disappears to await it's next appearance. There is always SOMETHING, anything standing in the middle of people being happy. Maybe we were just ment to work and die with short glimpses of greatness in the middle.
Your friends.. Some stay your whole lifetime, others just drift in and out. One minute they care about you, they wonder how you are, the next minute you are just a faded memory of a person they once knew. You make new friends, only to go through the process again. If you are dating this person they like you, if you are dating that person you are nothing to them. Oh but we care! Yeah.. Put it on a hallmark and send it to the Pope... He might believe you. Words from people become more and more empty. So why even bother?
Your family.. Usually a crazy lot with no reason or rhyme. They drive you nuts, dictate your feelings. Who you should be. What you should be. What you should do. Who you should marry. Who your friends should be. How you should raise your kids. What you should wear. How you should look. What happened to just being there through the good and the bad? They create more drama then it's worth.
Your kids... Cute little bundles of joy, then they start walking and talking and the next thing you know they are teenagers and they hate you cause you did this or didn't do that. Then they become adults and if you are lucky they still want something to do with you. But basically you are given these little lives to mold, help grow and teach. You pray for 18 years that you will get it right then for the rest of your life you pray that they will get it right. You never sleep again once they are born, always worrying about this or that.
What is there that is worth working for anymore?
